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So last night I couldn't sleep. One of my kids woke me up needing something and I couldn't go back to sleep. I went to the couch and couldn't calm my mind. As I wrestled with God over the housing market and other things that are stressing me right now I decided to reach out to an elder, but since it was 4am I decided to wait on calling. I began to rehearse what I'd say and as I did I discovered something...I was full of fear, in fact I was dominated by it. Because I've been reading a lot of Philippians, Paul's words came to mind, "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer...let your requests be made known unto God. The Lord is near. And the peace of God...will guard your heart and mind..." (I'm paraphrasing). I began to pray but found it hard to concentrate. Now, I'm not going to tell you that I "prayed until the peace came." I'm still struggling with fear...but I did find God's grace begin to comfort my heart. It felt like a wrestling match with my emotions and thoughts though. Just as I started to calm down, about to go to sleep, the kids woke up. Maybe I'll get a nap?

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1. Teresa Staley wrote:
I wrestle with fear. Thank you for your transparency.....
Love you are blogging.....

Tue, February 18, 2014 @ 1:30 PM

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